the sky is everywhere

1. I could never remember to water the plants so you always did it for me. Its been a few weeks, they’re dead now and I think I am too

2. today I dropped a mug and it shattered at my feet and I think thats what my heart must look like inside of my chest, I hope you’re happy, thats all I’ve ever wanted for you anyway

3. something is missing inside me do you think I could come over to your place and look for it?

4. I scratched your favorite record, I’m not sure if i did it on purpose or not

5. when you speak your words mix with the stars, I cant even look at the night sky without feeling like I’m choking

6. you never cried over books, how is that even possible??

7. I’ve been sleeping in your old t-shirts, they feel like how you taste

8. do you remember the first time you stayed the night and you held me so tightly that we melted into each other? I’m still peeling bits of you off my skin

9. I’d let you kill me all over again if it meant I got to kiss you one more time

10. I quit smoking cigarettes because I saw you in the smoke. Thanks.

11. I still drown in you sometimes

12. I see you everywhere I wish you would leave me alone please please please stop haunting me you know I’ve always been afraid of ghosts

13. holy fuck I cant breathe without you

14. you’re the sun and the moon and all the stars and I find bits and pieces of you in everything and everywhere, you’re in my blood and on my tongue. I’ve been trying to bleed you out of my system. It isn’t working.

15. I wish I could hate you oh my fucking god

Dear Future Daughter:

1) When you’re at some party, chain smoking on the roof with some strange girl with blue hair and exorbitant large dark eyes, ask her about her day. I promise you, you won’t regret it. Often times you’ll find the strangest of people have the most captivating of stories to tell.

2) Please, never mistake desire for love. Love will engulf your soul, whilst desire will emerge as acid, slowly making it’s way through your veins, gradually burning you from the inside out.

3) No one is going to fucking save you, anything you’ve read or heard otherwise is bullshit.

4) One day a boy is going to come along who’s touch feels like fire and who’s words taste like vanilla, when he leaves you, you will want to die. If you know anything at all, know that it is only temporary.

5) Your mental health comes before school baby, always. If its midnight, and you have an exam the next day but your hands have been shaking for the past hour and a half and you’re not so sure you want to be alive anymore, pull out that carton of Ben and Jerry’s and afterwards, go the fuck to bed. So what if you get a 68% on the exam the next day? You took care of yourself and at the end of the day that will always come before a high test score. To hell with anyone who tells you differently.